I can't explain it any clearer but here's the gist of what I told my best friend Mew.

When it comes to my writing, I find that I cannot write things as smoothly as they come out in my head, no matter what I do. My RP posts are out of character when before they never used to be. I cannot seem to get the grasp of a character like I used to. I cannot seem to make my posts flow without overusing words and such. I used to be good with that, like, a human dictionary/thesaurus, and now it's all disappeared, replaced by nothing other than everyday slangauge and I hate it!

I couldn't even write Anne Rice fanfiction anymore if I tried, and believe me, I used to be one of the fucking best at that. Both Bernie and myself. So what happened? I don't know what the hell it was, and it wasn't the drugs I did when I was younger, because I used to write all through those times and I was perfectly fine. I don't think it's the antidepressants and antipsychotics and valium and shit, because even when I was off of them, I still had my trouble.

So how do you get the grasp of a character when you write fanfiction or roleplay? Because I need to retrain my mind to learn everything it's somehow forgotten. I can't keep stopping RP's with Mew because of this ailment of mine, and I can't keep scrapping my fanfictions and novels because of this, it's not fair to me. I have a ton of ideas that I would love to put out there, but it doesn't help when I cannot even write a character (original or pre-made) properly.


Ugh. I hate this. Am I the only one who's gone through something like this? It's like writer's block, only not. Help?